QUIET REGISTER
Browse the collected notes, essays, fragments, and field records.
Filed by season and year; like specimens arranged in a patient cabinet.
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Arabesque No.1 - Claude Debussy I was listening to Deux Arabesques, L. 66 by Claude Debussy, and suddenly wondered: can I claim Arabesque No. 1 as the birthday song of a seasoned loner? Probably only I would do that. ...
a tale about the Butterfly Devil
A concise glossary for reading symbols, inference rules, and basic terms in Axiom Room.
An observation note about one dark red Cosmos bipinnatus individual that appeared among pink and white flowers in my yard.
Listening to: Laufey — Questions for the Universe I did not really understand the whole lyrics when I first listened to this song. Maybe that was exactly why I caught its atmosphere before its meaning. But perhaps I understood a little: Laufey seems to be expressing doubt and confusion about love, life, and herself. ...
Notes and reflections on Prof. Iwan Pranoto’s explanation of the difference between thinking and reasoning, and the importance of cultivating scientific temper.
A note on the meeting of two temporal orientations, local entropy conflict, and the possibility of time as a cyclic form.
Warning: If, after reading this essay, your first thought is “This was definitely written by AI,” then this essay may be talking about you. When I scroll through content on the internet lately, the question I see most often in the comments is not “What might the artist have felt?”, but a much cooler question, at least from the commenter’s point of view, (perhaps): “Is this AI?” Funny, isn’t it? ...
An essay on how ecological destruction can appear as growth when economic measurement systems count transactions, but fail to see the biological losses behind them.
An essay on the illusion that the economy can be decoupled from the ecosystem, exploring how all human financial activities rest upon biological and ecological foundations.
Muscrypt as an experiment in text transformation, symbolic cipher, and reflection on how writing survives within visual culture.
A fragment I found in an old Obsidian archive and rewrote.
A focus timer web app that transforms study sessions into a small archive filled with species, biological facts, and reflective quotes.
Notes on the limits of the linear model in understanding the intersection of two opposing arrows of time.
The lonely one. That is what she was called, in a story written by a seasoned solitary. She was called so because no one realized she was lonely— not even herself. The reason was simple: She had yet to define “loneliness.” So the woman decided to embark on a journey. To seek the true meaning of something that had quietly clung to her. She closed her gate softly, So that God wouldn’t notice. ...
A cafe dialogue about loneliness, the dualism of the mind, and a network of mischievous neurons.
One night, long before I knew anything of encrypted texts, little Mus was awakened by the sound of crying, rising and falling like a musical scale. A girl in an ivory-white dress sat in the corner of the room, leaning against the cold wall. Her knees were pulled tight to her chest, her arms wrapped around them, her head bowed, her face hidden in the folds of her arms. In the narrow space between breath and sob, tears fell. ...
If I am a mirror, and the mirror is you, then we are one. It sounds romantic. But logically… it is horrific.
In a corner of my mind, there lies a realm called Silva Nigra; a forest of blackened leaves. At its heart stands Aristolochia, a castle woven from biomolecules. There, Troides helena dwells. Outside my mind, she is merely a butterfly growing rare, cast aside by human exploitation of the tropical forests. Queen Helena is renowned for her exquisite beauty. Her forewings are a deep, ink-black; her hindwings a vibrant yellow, etched with poetic, dark patterns. ...
In a cemetery in Vienna, an equation about entropy is carved onto Ludwig Boltzmann’s tombstone. If our identity is a system, this equation explains why we need the space to be ‘messy’ in order to keep evolving.
In the previous article, I stated that identity is an ongoing process that develops our assumptions about ourselves. However, the question is not finished: what if identity is actually a label attached by external parties? To understand this, we can look at how identity is typically verified. In daily life, identity is often reduced to data: name, place of birth, status, or occupation. As if with just that data, a person can be fully “understood.” ...
This confusion isn’t exactly new. It’s been lingering for a long time, reminding me of the doubts I once wrote about in Certainty. Back then, I questioned the certainty of our perception of the world. This time, I’m questioning the certainty of who is actually doing the perceiving. There was a time when I felt like the “weird” one among “normal” people (honestly, I still feel weird now). As a communications student back then, the “normal” thing to do was to practice persuasion techniques or try to look confident in front of an audience. But in reality, I actively avoided it. Instead of joining discussions about practical methods, I spent most of my time sitting alone in front of the psychology faculty, imagining that if I were a psychology student, I’d confidently mock Sigmund Freud’s penis envy theory. ...
I once wrote in a caption that I am “more often confused than knowing.” And right now, as it happens, I’m genuinely confused about what to write for my first post. My imaginary friend gave me a suggestion. (He’s actually just me, talkin’ to myself). “Just write about certainty.” Alright then. Let’s talk about certainty… or the lack thereof. What is actually certain in this universe? I’d probably answer that question with a faint smirk and say, ...
Year
A popular science book for understanding the universe, space, time, and the big questions behind cosmology.
An open-access PNAS research article on how smallholder and industrial oil palm plantations can balance economic productivity with ecological functions.
A reflective book about courage, happiness, and how to relate to oneself through Adlerian psychology.
An open-access biology textbook covering core concepts from cells and genetics to evolution and ecology.
A gripping memoir recounting the life of Tara Westover, who grew up in a strict, survivalist family with no access to formal education, yet remarkably went on to earn a PhD from the University of Cambridge.
An intergenerational collaboration that weaves a warm yet tender conversation around the ideas of homecoming and departure as relational antonyms.
A reference book for understanding motivation.
An exploration of how human relationships shape the brain, emotions, empathy, and the social dynamics that influence everyday life.
A brilliant exploration of the mind's two systems—the fast, intuitive System 1, and the slow, deliberate System 2—revealing how they shape our judgment, biases, and decision-making.